Nothing else to rely upon

I have nothing else to rely upon but the fact that Jesus Christ, the Son of God, lived, died, was buried, rose again, went to heaven, and still lives and pleads for sinners at the right hand of God.

-Spurgeon

Now and soon to be

To classify myself, I must say that I am a wandering daydreamer. I constantly dream dreams, make lists, & invent stories. There are many things that I want to be when I grow up:

become a gardener

become expertly domesticated

do crafts, create, invent, and make things beautiful

produce art

be an expert in interior design

be a REAL writer, write my books

be able to speak Spanish, Russian, and Italian fluently

be like really really really expertly good with kids (in a gospel viewed way)

become more evangelistic & bold in faith

be more disciplined in reading & also running/exercise

be more loving and sympathetic and in mind of others!

Yes, I say this is what I want for when I "grow up."

But I've recently realized that I am grown up. The time is now. I am not promised another day. Too many times people wish and say that tomorrow I'll do this or that, but the Bible says:

"Come now, you who say, Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that. As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin." James 4:13-17

Do not waste time. Just do something. Do it now. Do it for the glory of God above.

Help

sin's so bad it's a lie
it says we on the throne, tells God to retire
it says He aint enough
its says we want more
it says He aint just
its says He aint Lord
& sin is the laugh of His power
the rape of His mercy
the mock of His patience
it says He aint worthy

"Live Free" Lecrae

I'm struggling a lot these days. Trying to believe. But my heart is not 100% believing. So idols have crept up again.
I'm trying to kill sin. I can only do that by the power of the Spirit. His Word. It's all warfare. Pray for me. :/