25.1.09

Suffering

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and I became quiet.

Why?

I don't understand this world. Why are we put in this world of sin and loneliness, hurt and despair? What is the point? Why are we fooled that anything in this place could be happy and good? There is nothing good here. It is all sin.

I've experienced too many tragedies within my close circle in the past two weeks-- sin, separation from God, rebellion, sexual immorality, illness, death, divorce, more illness, heartbreak, desertion. It has been piled into my lap. Where is the good in this? Even if you know that it must be there somewhere, it can be entirely too difficult to find sometimes.

One thing I fear about close relationships are pain and heartbreak. There is so much sin in this world... I can't begin to imagine what a place of no sin would be like. I wish that I was able to imagine a place like this... then maybe there would be some sort of a hopeful feeling.



Romans 9:14

8.1.09

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Things have happened and I had a feeling last night before I went to bed. I suppose it's the kind of feeling trees have when an axe is held to their trunk.

This is the kind of feeling that is produced when the safety net which was always depended on is threatened to be removed. Yet it's okay because: the Lord is with us, He are mighty to save.

I've been on some adventures, but this is more real then any of them.


GOD WILL LIFT UP YOUR HEAD

Give to the wind your fears.
Hope and be undismayed.
God hears your sighs and counts your tears.
God will lift up, God will lift up, lift up your head.

God will lift up your head.
God will lift up your head.
God will lift up your head.
God will lift up your head.

Leave to His sovereign sway.
To choose and to command.
Then shall we wandering on His way,
Know how wise and how strong.
How wise and how strong.

God will lift up your head.
How strong is his hand.
God will lift up your head.
How wise and how strong.
God will lift up your head.
How strong is his hand.
Lift up your head.

Through waves and clouds and storms, He gently clears the way.
Wait because in His time, so shall this night,
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy.
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy.

God will lift up your head.
God will lift up your head.
God will lift up your head.

God will lift up your head.